I watched the awards last night.  I was so caught up in those shows when I was 15!  I was jealous and full of envy.

I feel so differently about all that now.  I love to see someone win who didn't expect it.  I love to see them so excited and flustered.  It warms my heart.  To live your life in the spotlight all the time must be so tiresome.  They live the same lives many people in our own neighborhoods do.  With less money of course.  I see that money makes them SOOOOOO much happier too.  Don't you? I was a model for several years and I quit because I was tired of being treated like a piece of meat. I can't imagine having my ENTIRE life on display. I still had some annonimity. I hope I learn enough to be helpful to my kids as they grow and see some of this stuff for what it is.

I am tired of judgement in my life. Not only coming to me, but how I judge others. What a crappy thing to do! I have no right. Sure I can have my opinions....just because the microscope is on does not mean I have to look and judge. I am a wife, mom, daughter, friend, aunt, sis-in-law...just like lots of other women out there.

I love it when my brain works well and I get enough sleep!