Ever have one of those days where nothing you do goes right? I could talk all damn day and no one will hear me! I need a break, AGAIN! A holiday, a cook! I have been cleaning like a lunatic lately so I just need someone to cook for me for the next few days. THATS IT!..

Damn its going to be another interesting weekend. Hubby has to go help shingle our friends house. It's a HUGE friggen house..freakin 4000 square feet. I'm just glad I don't have to clean that one. She has 7 kids and another on the way...TOO MUCH FOR ME!..Although her kids are awesome and she is the best mom ever I could still not do that! I applaud her!

I'm tired just thinking about it!

Gotta feed the creatures..later.......

It is for sure one of those days where I should have stayed in bed and gotten a sitter to watch my kids. They have seen too much of me lately and not enough of their dad. He worked like a lunatic last weekend and this is the aftermath. WHINING!

It's quickly getting to the point they NEED to go play outside! I have to clean up the music in this thing. They want to dance to every song I put on..so needless to say it TAKES FOR FREAKIN EVER!

Ok I am going to plant them both in the snowbank..catch ya all later!

I watched the awards last night.  I was so caught up in those shows when I was 15!  I was jealous and full of envy.

I feel so differently about all that now.  I love to see someone win who didn't expect it.  I love to see them so excited and flustered.  It warms my heart.  To live your life in the spotlight all the time must be so tiresome.  They live the same lives many people in our own neighborhoods do.  With less money of course.  I see that money makes them SOOOOOO much happier too.  Don't you? I was a model for several years and I quit because I was tired of being treated like a piece of meat. I can't imagine having my ENTIRE life on display. I still had some annonimity. I hope I learn enough to be helpful to my kids as they grow and see some of this stuff for what it is.

I am tired of judgement in my life. Not only coming to me, but how I judge others. What a crappy thing to do! I have no right. Sure I can have my opinions....just because the microscope is on does not mean I have to look and judge. I am a wife, mom, daughter, friend, aunt, sis-in-law...just like lots of other women out there.

I love it when my brain works well and I get enough sleep!  

OH YEAH!..YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAY!

She is the best teacher ever..if you wanna do IT too..just read her blog or ask her questions.

I DID IT!...

ok nuff said...lol

Ok onto other things..I'm in a pissy mood. I'm tired and all that shite. My husband worked WICKED overtime this weekend and he is tired. What he forgets is while he was at work I was holding down the fort alone. I'M FUCKING TIRED TOO! I went up to my room to watch a movie and when I came back down I heard the kids outside. he is taking them to his parents so THE can watch them while he sleep on their fucking couch. HOLY FUCK! I love how they never even offered to take the kids for a few hours this weekend for me. Yes I only have two kids and his mom had 13. Her choice..but I get shafted for it. Times like these make me wish we were back home in Alberta so MY parents could help me out...or at least I would have some friends that aren't having a gazillion kids right now. WE COULD ACTUALLY GO OUT IN ONE..YES ONE vehicle..not a fucking caravan of three fucking vans full of kids dammit! Ahhh..yeah I'm whiny today. I have sleeping pills now. I have insomnia. I stopped smoking the ganja too. I have a serious desire to his my husband with a 10lb bag of potatoes! Eating chocolate..feeling better...bye

Now that the new year is here I have to start getting to work on the planning of the family reunion.

I sent out a mass email this morning. I heard back already, from two cousins. That's what I get on my dads side of the family. PROMPT RESPONSE.

We are trying to get the USA side of the family to come check out Canada. They are scared it's going to be cold..If they only knew how hot it gets here in the summer. Perfect weather..lol. I can't wait to see everyone now that my Grandmother died. I really want to keep the family remembering each other and trying to keep contact.

I was sitting here today with two of my sisters in law and two friends..and my kids too. It was such a nice afternoon..we sat around and had tea and some brownies. YUM!

es. I taught them how to crochet..LMAO! It was awesome..being around them lets me see what I missed growing with no siblings. I finally get why my husband wants more than a couple of kids..I think we need a couple more..NOT RIGHT NOW!..but in the near future I think. After we move and get the next house set up.

Ok pardon me I'm feeling all maternal and shit..too many babies around..my damn ovaries are crying! :evil:

Must sleep..going shopping with the girls tomorrow. Going to buy my niece an outfit or two..that should help my ovaries. Darn cute baby at 4months old!

'Night!

 Happy New Year!

Today is my daughters 5th birthday. She was so excited when she went to bed last night..early..lol. So my party could start. It didn't work though. My son picked last night to not be settled and to be an all around freak-a-saurus. It took awhile to get him sleeping soundly.

I rang in the new year doing something I hope to do often :wink:

We have a family thingy going on today. We also got a new table for the toy room for crafts and PLAY-DOH! LMAO! I have a feeling tonight while dad is at hockey me and the kids will be making masterpieces on the table. LOL.

What did you do to ring in the new year?..any resolutions?..I don't make them anymore..haven't for years. I don't need to..cuz I'M PERFECT DAMMIT! :lol:

Last year I rang it in the same way as this year...but this year was better....